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Wednesday, August 17, 2011

The "Ordinary" Spells

While I play games on my mobile,the non-touchscreen phone,I came across a list of spells that will be unlocked after achieve the games' request,or completing the trophy.Either it's true or not,but some worth trying.

Snow Day Spell
The night before the day you want snow,light a black candle.Clear your mind and recite this three times:"Goddess Hecate,I call upon thee!Make tomorrow a snow day,so mote it be."

Halloween Love Spell
On Halloween night,go out to a spring with a lamp.Look into the spring.You will see the reflection of your future partner.

Luck Spell
On a night of full moon,recite these words:"Lady of luck come out of your hidden course,bless your light upon me as the light of the moon shines above and in the light of luck will I be blessed,when the moon is next to be full.


Energy Spell
During nights of full moon,fill a glass with drinking water and leave it at the windowsill (outside if possible).In the morning,before eating,drink the water and feel the moon's energy flowing inside you.

Bath Healing Spell
Run a hot bath,adding powdered ginger  and eucalyptus oil.Light blue candles,place them near the bathtub and turn out the lights.Enter the bathtub and relax in the bath water.

Find Job Spell
If you want to have a little magic to help you on job interview,make a herbal charm.Mix a bit of sage,lavender,dill,basil,and parsley and pour it on a green cloth.Add in a chip of tiger's eye,and tie the cloth into a pouch using a gold ribbon.This charm will bring you prosperity ans radiate wisdom and knowledge.

New Year Fortune Spell
At midnight of New Year's Eve you should take on your hand a wad of money while you listen the 12 rings of the bell guarantee that you'll have a lot of money on the New Year.

New Year Luck Spell
On the 31st of December,get a piece of paper and write all the bad things that happened in the year that is ending.Burn the paper to avoid bad luck in the New Year.

Happy New Year Spell
When you decorate your table for the New Year's Eve dinner you must use the best tablecloth,dishes,glasses and cutlery that you have.Adorn the table with two red candles to guarantee a true love for your family and something golden to achieve a lot of money in the New Year.

Sweet Dream Spell
Before you go to sleep,put some rosemary and lavender leaves under your pillow and say:"Sweet dreams I will have,free of nightmare I will be".


 Does sour patch works instead of candle?


                
Insomia Spell
Soak your pillow lightly with lavender essence,write your name in a sky-blue candle and light it.Drink a cup of Valerian infusion and...Sweet dreams!

Study Spell
Carve your name into yellow candle and anoint it with lavender oil.Light an incense then the candle and say:"Oh,Spirit of Wisdom,to you I pray that,throughout my studies,my mind will  not stray.Keep it receptive,open and clear for me.As is my will,so it shall be!"

Achieve Money Spell
Fill a dark recipient half-full of water and drop a silver coin into it.Position the recipient so that the light of the moon shines into the water.Gently sweep your hands just above the surface,symbolically gathering the Moon's silver and say three times this:"Lovely Lady of the Moon,bring to me your wealth right soon.Fill my hands with silver and gold.All you give,my hands can hold".When finished,pour the water upon the Earth.

Economy Difficulty Spell
Light a yellow candle with 3 matches,put a white quartz in front of the candle and scatter eucalyptus and laurel powder on the quartz.Take a yellow rose in your hand and say:"I wish to be in harmony and overcome this current trance to walk free tomorrow".This quartz will be your lucky charm.

Confidence & Success Spell
If you want to build up your confidence,try this.Mix lavender and lemon juice,use it to wash your hair and let it air dry.You will have a boost in confidence,and are likely to have success in your doings.

Sunshine Spell
Light an orange candle,rub suntan lotion onto your hands and toss a carnelian or red jasper crystal from hand to hand seven times as you say:"Goddess Sun bless and decree that the sun shall shine on me".

St.Valentine Love Spell
get a thorn from a white rose bush and write "Oh my love come to me" three times on a simple white candle.Spread your and your lover's favorite things in a table.In the center,light the candle,and when it has burned out completely,collect the wax and wrap it together with your love souvenir and keep it in a safe place.

Nightmares Spell
Lay three red leaves in triangle on a flat surface and drip some drops of chrysanthemum oil on each leaf.In the center,place a lit candle.Chant this three times:"Red leaves,gift from earth,birth to death and death to birth,keep all evil far away,day to night and night to day".Put out the candle and wrap the leaves in a white cloth or pouch.Place this near your bed within three feet of your head and it will end all nightmares.

Cleansing Spell
You need 3 candles:one white,one black and one green.Light the white candle and say:"Mother Earth,Fire,Wind,Water and Spirit,I ask thee to cleanse my body from all negative forces".Light the black candle and say the same thing.After this,light the green candle and say:"Mother Earth,Fire,Wind,Water and Spirit,I ask thee to cleanse my body from all negative forces.Blessed be!"

Prosperity Spell
Place Irish Moss under a mat outside your front door,and you will always have prosperity coming in.

Health Protection Spell
Take a red ribbon and make a bracelet with seven knots while you think about good things.Try to wear it as often as you can.

Find Love Spell
On a piece of paper,write down the qualities of the person that you'd like to have come into your life.At a table,light a red and white candle in each side to one fireproof container.Try to imagine this person and light the piece of paper from both candles and say this:"I ask the Gods to send to me this person I desire,I may not yet know their face or name,still I know they're out there,and they're looking for me just the same".Drop the burning paper into the container,being careful not to burn yourself.

Tea Divination Spell
Make a cup of tea without milk.Say:"Goddess of Moon,God of Sun,lend some power so I may see the future".Look into the cup and try to look past the drink and see shapes of the future.


Wishing Spell
Hold a lucky charm.light a candle and while thinking of your wish,chant three times:"This simple wish is mine to cast,a magic spell to make it last,I close my eyes a little shiver,this wish for me now please deliver".When you have finished drop the luck charm and blow the candle out.


I'll need the wishing spell to have him!


Heartbreak Spell
Write the name of the person who you want to forget on a piece of paper.Place a red candle,and two white candles one left and the other right from the red one.Light the red candle,left white,then right white candle while you are chanting these words:"I burn this name so it shall be cast out of my memory.(Name of person),your name is as cold as ice;to get over you would be nice".


Family Harmony Spell
Put three red flowers in a crystal vase along with their stems and place the vase on the left corner of a table.Every day,spend some time next to the vase,looking at it and asking for harmony in your family.When the flowers wilt,throw them in running water.

Summer Solstice Spell
On June 23rd at midnight,light a sky-blue candle.Write a wish on a piece of paper and place it under your pillow,together with an ivy leaf.The next day,burn the paper and bury the ashes and ivy leaf in the garden or in a flower pot.



Friday, July 15, 2011

Silent Is Cute

Meet Davey Wavey,
on his National Day of Silence.



Enjoy the next 10 minutes of watching him quietly.

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

I Am Who I Am

Is the reason you ask me to change,
So that you stay the same?
Well I'm sorry if I keep disappointing you again and again
But,
I am who I am
And you can't change me
I've done what I can
And I'll stand my ground
You're tying my hands
You rearrange me
It all falls down


  Lee Ryan 

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Gay Magazine & Kylie Minogue

After work I went to MHS having a walk-xercise.Every time I go there I must go to Sungei Wang Plaza to check out my fave magazine-the gay-related magazine,where I first found my first gay magazine-Gay Times.

Checking out there don't have any,I proceed to Times Square where I know a shop lot sell foreign magazine.I spotted a Attitude Magazine.Since I left my bag in my locker at my workplace,I just know its not the right time to hold the magazine wandering around the crowded.Shouldn't show I holding a semi-naked man on mall and street.And I bought it 2 days later.Another collection.



Until late evening before 8,I went to Lot 10.Hanging around the YES Internet Mobile Network,I catch a glimpse at a laptop which a guy watching a music video.I saw a scene where there's a man-on-man kissing,immediately I catch the title of that music video.




Monday, December 06, 2010

It's His 21st Birthday

The title said it all.Yes,it's his 21st birthday on Sunday,December 5th 2010,which mean yesterday.He is Haire,the dude that I first secretly felt in love when I was gred 8 aka form 2.The first dude I had a feeling toward.The first dude I had a crush on.The first dude that make me wonder if it's normal to have a man-to-man feeling.And now,I'm gay because of him.

 Come on man,it's your birthday!

If it's now December 6th 2010,which is already passed 12 o'clock,well it's wasn't yet.I just knew that he wasn't in Malaysia,he flew to United Kingdom,to a place called Cardiff.And now,it 1800hour,December 5th 2010 there.

A few days ago I knew his birthday coming soon,and I had to make something special than a birthday wish on his Facebook wall.And guess what,working at a cake house,I had a White Christmas Yule Log,which made from vanilla sponge with Chantilly cream.Added with some Christmas mini toys,and most important thing I won't missed out-the 21st birthday wishes.

It's a lovely cake I make for him


Friday, June 18, 2010

Make Out With You

I was checking my abandoned sent-message in facebook inbox,then I saw this song which I wrote 2 years ago and now looking at this self-written song,it pretty good writes.


If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

Since I saw that young man,I never was a straight man
I never had a girlfriend that wanted me,yeah
Ever since I blew you,I never even knew you
I only wanna get you right here in my pants
 
'Cause everybody,woah-oh-oh
Need a guy that they can touch
And you're somebody,whoa-oa-oa
That I fondled just in time

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you

My orientation changing
Its always rearranging
Its always gayer than I thought it ever would
Ever since you kissed me,you always wanna this me
I just wanna get down on my knee and blew

'Cause everybody,woah-oh-oh
If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

Don't tell me even that you're bi
Just tell me that you're gay
And gay with me all night

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right.



Wednesday, May 12, 2010

When Your Gone

December 31st 2006.That the date I met "him" 3 years ago.He saw me 3 years ago.Destiny brought us together 3 years ago.Instantly,we became an item and inseparable.It was all happened in a very busy shopping mall with my friend looking for a thing and suddenly I spotted him.After this-and-that introduction,we started as a friend.I was so thrilled to have him,he may not my first but he's gorgeous among all I had before,and of course,I'm not his first.

He was good looking;I was below the scale.He doesn't mind.We're faithful to each other.His secret's mine and my secret's his,we never betray each other.aside that,he is multi-talented gifted-he can sing and compose,he can draw very well and not to mention,he great in acting.

I love him so much that I can't keep myself far away from him.He is everything to me.Rain or shine,or even wee hours of the morning,he will be my side,to comfort me;when I'm in moody,he will listen to my problem;when I in happiness,he will be there to share the joy.I was so lucky one to have him.


 We have something in common-magazine lover.

But last Friday,3-year-4-month later,an unfortunate happened to me,he is no more longer with me.I tried to trace every footstep but I couldn't find any single.I was sleeping with him the night before and suddenly,he just poof and disappear.

Well,this is not about boyfriend stuff,"He" is my ex-cellphone-SE K750i.

I lost the phone because I didn't realize that my pant's pocket got a hole and it just dropped somewhere.An hour later then I realize my phone wasn't with me and I traced back my way.No suck luck that people won't noticed a cellphone on the ground.I won't mind if the phone gone but together with my memory card!From Blue to Lady Gaga,vanish away from me.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Is Bankai For Bleach?

If you watch or read or at least heard Bleach-the anime and the manga,which is popular nowdays,then you might know what is "Bankai",or if you don't,then here's the explanation-A zanpakutou's final form which means "Full Release". It usually takes many years to master it. A Bankai can be ten times more powerful than the first release, "Shi-Kai".

Don't cha mest with my Heaven Chain Slaying Moon(Tensa Zangetsu)

*At least the cosplayer is a little quite good looking.

But if you think that only the meaning and could be found in Bleach,you're wrong and so am I before I found another meaning of Bankai.Well,it do sound a little dirty,in sexual way:

1)Somebody's penis-My bankai is growing in size.
2)It can also be describe as an erection-Man... I have a bankai.
3)Can tell when people are ejaculating-I'm about to bankai!
4)Premature ejaculation,after previously ejaculating-If you don't get off my shit I'm gonna bankai!
But I didn't use Bankai for those 4 example,I use for Bleach game only.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Long Searching Comes True

It's been about half-a-year since I last went to KLCC's Kinokuniya,and same goes to Mid Valley's Popular and The Gardens' Borders.Kinokuniya is one of the bookstore(biggest in town) where I can(sometime) search for some gay-related reads.

Last wednesday after half-a-year,I once again stepped into Kinokuniya,hoping to assisted by the search machine to find some of the books I saw at Amazon.But bookstore isn't everything what I wanted especially the books which gay-related,but trust me,there's some at romance,teens,gender and fiction shelf.If roll down to the left under The Book I Read,all the books were found there except Alex Sanchez's Rainbow Road and Reichen Lehmkuhl's Here's What We'll Say which from The Gardens' Borders.

Reichen and his ex,Lance and they're so cute!

While having some browsing there,I came across to music section.I kept my eyes set on biographies,at B marked sign on the shelf.For what?Because I been long searching for Lance Bass's Out Of Sync.Within a second my eyeballs targeted the book I been long searching for,and it was sealed.Nevermind I'll ask the counter staff help me.But before that,I took a browsing at teens section.While looking the shelf,I saw a book which I been long searching too-Alex Sanchez's Rainbow High.

Later on,I went to MHS and I passed a bookshop,and I straightly proceed to the elevator to upper floor.A second I stepped on the elevator I saw a familiar magazine.To ensure what I saw,I ran down the stairs and find the magazine.To my surprise and unbelievable,my eyes didn't prove me wrong,it's the Gay Times,the new issue,which I had it before.I gagged and drop the fuck bombs under my breathe.After pay £3.75(pound sterling=RM18.57 and I had it only RM15.90),I was trilled to have the second copy of Gay Times.It's was December issue 375 and the one I last bought was July issue 370.Could say that Gay Times were really rare to get here in Malaysia.Ahhh wish I could get Gay Times every issue,I definitely will collect it even it cost more bucks.

 Meet the second of mine.

Monday, April 12, 2010

The Bearer of 27 True Runes

Well,I saw some bloggers wrote down their facts and it seem interesting.They tell their 23 facts and I don't understand why 23?But here a little different,I use 27 True Runes replace the 23 facts.
1)The bearer have Arachnophobia-irrational fear of spiders but loves watching spider documentary.
2)The bearer allergy to prawns and crabs flesh but fine with tiny dried prawn?
3)The bearer is a strong silent type of person,guess he is shy or whatever.
4)The bearer is a fanatic of Suikoden games series,hence come this blog's title.
5)The bearer know how to swim at age 4 in 6 feet pool.
6)The bearer is a very loyal reader to Galaxie magazine and Hitz.fm loyal listener.
7)The bearer was elementary chinese educated but english spoken.Westernize.
8)The bearer have a bunch of comic collections,start with Doraemon,Dragon Ball,Hajime Kindaichi,and other with incomplete set.His all time favorite comic is Dragon Quest.
9)The bearer found he was attracted to his childhood guy friend and thought he was bisexual for 4 years and finally declare himself a fully homosexual 2 years ago.
10)The bearer doesn't chew food more than 3 times in large quantities.He just swallow it and always hungry for food-swallowing.

 I could finish the whole jar.

11)The bearer is a TV addict,mostly everyday have his favorite shows on local channel-drama,sci-fi,action or anything based on english TV.
12)The bearer never smoke,and the the only alcohol drink he ever (so far) consume were shandy.
13)The bearer always fully clothed,and brief on when sleeping(rarely).
14)The bearer have a chinese name and since no one call me that name anymore,after done my elementary,they just address me Bradley,simple.
15)The bearer never done any gay action yet,haven't kiss,hold hands,or talk to a gay guy.A completely untouched guy.
16)The last chinese song he listened was SHE 7 years ago.
17)The bearer is a hobosexual,he doesn't care his appearance and has no sense of fashion or style.
18)The bearer will use his pseudonyms he don't want to reveal himself.One of his was Freyjadour Falenas but has been founded by someone.
19)The bearer loves reading after picked Reichen Lehmkuhl's Here's What We'll Say,especially the one with bromance.
20)The bearer heritagely from Eurasian but he did look like Siamese as he been told.

Bin ich asiatischen oder eurasischen?
Am I asian or eurasian? 
21)The only 2 singer he admire and loves most is Jesse McCartney and Lady Gaga.
22)The only gay stuff he owned is his UK's GayTimes issue 370.Very precious.
23)The bearer can spend entire half day in a mall without shopping.
24)The bearer use simple english due to his poor spellings and his slow-words-arrangement.
25)The bearer doesn't inherit his father's hunky-playboy-looks nor his mother beauty.
26)The bearer couldn't stand if he sees someone local who's taller than his 6 feet,exception to the whites.
27)The bearer started using internet 2 years ago.Before he doesn't know how to.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

A Little Scribble

 A male-on-male hug I needed!
Crush,
What is that?
Were it the same as love or
Two different things?
Were I in crush or
I've been secretly loving him
For the pass 8 years?
For him,
I support MU even though
I'm "stool legged".
For him,
I wish one day
I'll be driving BMW.
I always have him in my mind
No matter how many hawties
I'm been looking at.
I wanted to see him everyday,
Even there's no talking between us.
If I can't,a picture of him will do.
That will enoughly satisfied me.
Someone please help me to tell me,
Is this crushing or loving a person?
But I'll tell myself that I liking him,
That he is my first crush that make me
Into a person that I comfort with.

Even we couldn't be together,a friendly hug will do.

Actually I already knew,
I already understand that
We're from two different lifestyle.
A boy who love a boy who love girls.
A tilted who love straight.
Even though,
I keep myself strong,
I keep my feet stand still.
When I came out to you and
You don't mind having a gay friend.
I was happy with the acceptment but
I was afraid to confess my feeling.
Afraid that will destroy our friendship,
Even friend we couldn't be.
Even though I can't make a confession,
But I will continue secretly loving you,
until a person could replace you.
Till that moment,
I'll keep this feeling treasured,
Till forever.
Just in case you don't already know,Bad Romance is about in love to a best friend.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Dude Dude Dude

It was at night and I was at somewhere there's everyday activities were going on until late midnight.I was at busy night city at one of my favorite place-Mount Hill of Stars(MHS).Play enough games,read much magazines,viewed many eye candies and walked uncountable steps between mall to malls.

Before the clock struck on 12,before the day end,I bit farewell to MHS and proceed to the rows of clubs and pubs.While my little walk to there,I came across a very dashing,good looking white dude were walking to MHS.Alone he was.He's very handsome that my eyes balls kept looking at him with my face facing straight the street.

A few feet behind him was another dude probably from the Middle Eastern.A young-good-looking-daddy looks,clean shaven with after shaved perma-scruff.Like the white dude in front of him,he was alone too.Could he have stalking the dude?

There's an easier way for walking,err rolling

Thought the 2 dudes satisfied me enough,but whats make the third person?Again,few feet behind both of them appeared another dude,an asian,probably local chinese dude.Also a handsomely enough with the hairstyle of Taylor Lautner,minus the height which shorter some inches.Well,guess what,he was alone too,following the dudes infront .While passing the chinese dude,I couldn't take anymore than I could,I yelped a little hard voice along the breath I breathed,dropping the F word.When I turned my head back,I noticed the chinese dude were looking at me,probably thinking that I was mumbling alone.

3 hawt dudes,1 place,1 moment.Were it just coincident?I think it's just enough for my eye candies views.1 world dude.

Monday, March 08, 2010

One Less Lonely Guy

To be honest,I wasn't easy socialize to a person,I may seem as a friendly person in the net but not at the reality.I'm shy.Shy to friend with someone.I don't think that I've much friends and could counted easily by fingers.To name a few,my best buddy-girl Khanchna,ex-friend Kate,my crush,stranger-but-friendly-in net Nicky and so on that I cant really offered to be named.

Aside hard-to-socialize me,I'm also a very strong silent type but also a talkative when it comes to some interest subject.Almost all the time I'll feel kinky if I couldn't start a simple conversation,as if I was lack in communication,unless we're talking about Q & A.Well,if you found me talk pretty well in the net,try find it out and figure it soon enough when face to face.I just scared of talking because I don't have a good sense of humor or to tell jokes to cherish someone or get someone to laugh at my jokes.I afraid I'll tell the "Third Jokes" and ruin everything.


 As if you could tell what I'm thinking!

Like 2 weeks ago when a net friend invited me to met his new friend and my heart was quick beating because he invited me and of course I wanna join them,but at the same time I felt nervous.I not sure should I join them or not.I'd said that if I can get permission(totally bullshit) but at the end,on that day the meeting,I make excuse that I had to attend my brother's friend' wedding.But the truth is,I never follow him but the wedding is true,instead I stuck in my house with PS2.I felt guilty after that I lied to someone who sincerely invite me and I'd apologize to him soon later by telling the truth.

I really hate my weakened guts,I hate that I don't have bravery.And I promise myself in order to build my confidence and guts,I'll meet him someday.

Monday, January 18, 2010

What Happen In Meadow

I see myself,the other me,or probably myself,in a event.It's was teacher's day,from my hunch.I was one of two contestant who took part in water competition.I look around and I catch two guys sitting on a really tall chair like the badminton judge.One of them is Jin from Hitz.fm,and the other is a really good-looking-cum-handsome-studly dude.Now I know,the event is to choose The Hottest Teacher of the year.Then I saw another person who will compete with me,he look so familiar,the face,and soon I realize that was Haire the dude,with topless bare chest.I was so thrill so see him.Wipe your drool,Bradley!

Somehow I know what we gonna do to.We both need to dive in a really quite deep pool,about 20 feet and at the bottom has 3 alike rat trap cages.1 of it were filled with sinkable balls and 2 empty cages,which represent the 2 teachers.So I and Haire need to compete each other to dive in and insert the ball one at the time,the fastest into the cage of our choice.

I take Kyle and you take Jin,OK?

Fast forwardly,I insert the fourth ball into the studly-stranger dude's cage.Ok lets name him Kyle.One thing I missed was everytime I dive in,I never took a glance over Haire's bare top nor Kyle's or Jin's.With the fifth dive,I see myself slower than Haire,he is in front of me a few inches.Since I have all four balls in Kyle's,why not have him insert into his choice?Then suddenly I saw he insert the ball into Kyle's,not Jin's!Did he just did that?He look at me,smiling,and I don't know what's on his mind!I thought we should compete for the vote,not gather the vote.

To celebrate Kyle's winning of his hawt,all of us three-me,Haire and Kyle.We went to a strange place,a very widely green field,endlessly green field with the countless of sparkling starry night.We sing,we enjoy,we did all guy stuff(not including sex,mind you).With 2 hawt guys and starry night,what could I asked for more!

I think we lost!Helps?

The next morning after the one-in-a-lifetime-night,I know,that something had happened to me,to Kyle,something I was after Kyle--I already had sex with him!!!(thumbs up dude) With my greatest excitement to have sex with him and the deepest disappointment,I unable to catch the sex scene,not a single scene,what I know was we're done sexing!Heck!Haire?How I know where have he been?


Like something has skipped,I was in a car,probably it's time to go back.I was sitting beside to the driver,Phat Pabes of Fly.fm.(BTW I'm a loyal to hitz.fm,then why is Fly were here?)Haire and Kyle were at the back seat,chatting.Hey Haire,wanna swap seat?Suddenly appeared of 2 beautiful young hot chick(spot the different between hot and hawt?),we continue our journey.I looked at the rear side mirror,the reflection from the back showed me something horrible,Kyle was kissing.Not to Haire but a girl.Couldn't see anymore of this straight-romantic kissing,my tear flow down to my cheek.I was heart beaten.


With the sound from the TV my brother playing game,I wake up.I feel the sex-excitement and sadness of betrayal,in my dream.Wish I can find Kyle.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Ready For Meeting

I wake up at 6:30 am and drag my fatigue body to get a quick shower (read:buffalo bath).Arrggghhhh...the water from the shower is so damn cold,dropping from it and hit my body like ice meteor hit earth,I could freeze myself.After wipe with a towel,I grab my blue buttoned with dark blue pant,and brief too if you gonna ask me.With a T-shirt as undershirt,I put on my tie,pin my golden (fake) name tag with the name "BRADLEY" and a logo on my shirt pocket.Buckle my black shoe,a bag on my shoulder and a blazer on my left arm like a businessman as a finishing touché and voilà,I'm ready to stomp out from my house,leaving my PS2 on it death-sleeping mode,my brother will up later and Lawrence,probably he will wake at the noon.

My destination is just across the street I live and some of my colleagues stay there too (it's condos).Take about couple of minutes to reach there.Checking if Haire on his way,not even his shadow I could detect.If only I know when exactly he leave his place.With bunch of different level colleagues,we gather at a spot in the building compound.With Haire as our leader,always begin with "first thing first" while tapping his index finger to another,5 days a week meeting start.


 My blazer please,and please send me too.Please.


I look at my crush (you know who),looking straight to him,analyze him how dashing he is even though he wear the same outfit as us.His handsome face fasten my heart beat rate,like seeing Jesse McCartney;his fit body is waiting me to throw myself to hug him,to inhale his freshened body;his lip is begging me to have a passionate kiss on the spot;my eyes scroll down to his men-man area,wondering if I can see his buldge on his pant,as been told by my best friend Nicholas (not you,Nicky) also a close friend to him,he always had "woody" (man,damn horny he is).If only I has superman's look through power!As the meeting over,I go to my duty place and wish he could come and check on our duty.

That was 4 years ago when I were form 5 student-prefect.Seeing those freshly-holiday-graduated student make me miss my school year.If only 17 Again is happen to me,with the time and space travel back too,with the now me replace the 2006 me.

Aye,the school new term are just started a week ago.

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

10 Resolution on 10

Year 2009 has passed and here come 2010!Happy New Year 2010 folks!Last year has been much happening to me,yeah,good and the bad.Last year May,I came out to Haire;I started blogging;told my dad that I'm gay but later told him that it's was just joking,really fuck that;and others that I didn't mentioned on this blog.
 First of all,I'll need a place to nap!


2009 has passed,what happened done;2010 new era,what's going happen we don't know.Unless we can predict the future?

This year I'm gonna change myself.From top to bottom.From left to right.From mentally to physically.
  • I'm gonna lose more weight until I hit the ideal weight with the height gain too.(currently 6 feet)
    • I'm gonna hit my first gay club,a decent one if could,after my 21st birthday and that time I'll need someone to accompany me there.Any volunteer?Nicky?
      • I not sure if I'd good looking with glasses or without?What if I get myself a contact lense?
        • Laptop is gonna be mine before the end of the year.
          • In 3 months,cellphone,cellphone and cellphone.Man I'm gonna take a lot of my favorite celebs pictures.
            • I miss my primary school gathering,Annalicia Loke Soke Kwan,where are thou?Hanes Lim,I wanna meet you and those after standard 6 we separated to other secondary school.
              • A day after Christmas I couldn't went to the my secondary school gathering which organized by one of my friend,and he didn't showed up due to his relative emergency.And those abs and muscles of Haire's,I wanna feel and see if that true.
                • It's payback time.Information strictly secret.
                  • I did told him I'm gay but haven't told him why.And I want to tell him who'd caused me into this?
                    • I once completed Suikoden 5 and I played it again.And I wanna replay it again.it's the best among the rest of Suikoden.

                      Friday, December 25, 2009

                      12 Gifts In 12 days of Christmas

                      On the first day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Laptop
                      I'm a computer blind and I don't know what kind do suit me.As long it installed with all those freaking stuffs,anti-virus and ready to use.

                      On the second day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Jack Hart's books 
                      My First Time: Gay Men Describe Their First Same-sex Experience volume 1-5
                      Heat: Gay Men Tell Their Real-life Sex Stories
                      Straight?: True Stories of Unlikely Sexual Encounters between Men
                      Twink: True Stories in Celebration of Younger Men 
                      The Day We Met: The Very First Day of Long-Term Relationships 
                      My Biggest O: Gay Men Describe 'The Best Sex I Ever Had' 
                      Treasure Trail: Erotic Tales of Pirates on the High Seas
                      Gay Sex: A Manual for Men Who Love Men

                      On the third day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Penshoppe Accessories
                      My friend Lawrence from Phillipine came here and I caught this very cool and stylist wallet.Only available at Phillipine.I had his before he returned as he has a lot in his house(he said it).And a deodorant or some sort of body spray,also belong to him but unfortunately it finish before I can spray on me,and he used it a lot.It has very strong smell that even after wash the smell stays on the clothes.



                       Need a bigger sock!


                      On the fourth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me: 
                      Lance Bass's Out Of Sync
                      I read Reichen Lehmkuhl before a few times and I couldn't find his ex-boyfriend's.

                      On the fifth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me: 
                      Dragon Quest Dai no Daiboken vol.37 (The Great Adventure of Dai)
                      For 8 years I been waiting that comic volume 35,36 and 37.I bought volume 35 and 36(last 2 years ago) but 37 was out of stock.I know where volume 37 sold at but at Sunway Pyramid.But recently,thanks to One Manga and also to Nicholas aka Nicky,I read the last volume.But I still want the whole set.And volume 6 too which I lost it somewhere.

                      On the sixth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Alex Sanchez's Rainbow High
                      OK,for the fucking fourth time I re-read the first-Rainbow Boys and the third and last-Rainbow Road,I haven't read the second book-Rainbow High.Someone get me that book!

                      On the seventh day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Lady GaGa's The Fame + The Fame Monster + Unofficial track
                      Check this out the unofficial track at Lady GaGa



                      Bet and lose my Santa suit!


                      On the eighth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Cellphone
                      I been using my SE K750i for the last three years as my graduation gift,and the third year fall at new year's eve.Not fancy those touchphone,iPhone or Blackberry,just get me either Nokia 5730 Xpress Music or SE C901 or SE T707 which with WiFi and YouTube.

                      On the ninth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Kyle XY Season 1-3(DVD)
                      Matt Dallas aka Kyle is one hottie guy that I'll drool over.With the innocent and naked body on pilot,I love him!

                      On the tenth day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Dante's Cove(DVD)
                      Oh come on Reichen Lehmkuhl!Nice shower you had there.

                      On the eleventh day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      My First Gay Friend
                      I been gay for 8 years but I still don't have a single of gay friend.Anyone volunteer?


                      On the twelfth  day of Christmas,Santa please sent to me:
                      Boyfriend
                      Actually it was not on the list but I want it badly!I don't want a person called himself a boyfriend appear in front of me.I want to know him,to have fun with him until he is everything,then ask him to be my boyfriend.I wanna hold hands,cuddle and all those couple stuff.



                      OK!Done my Christmas list!



                      MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL I KNOW!!!HAVE A BLAST YEAR!!!

                      Wednesday, December 16, 2009

                      The Magazine Journey

                      Being the gay guy in gonna be 8 years with the first 3 years of bi-curious,but how you know that you're 100% gay?To me,first you must have gay friends,then gay movies,gay musics,gay novel,gay magazines(porn and non-porn),erotic gay stories,gay porn and last,gay sex.

                      But I didn't achieve the first step-gay friend.



                       I need someone like you!


                      I live in a world of "straight-want-opposite-gender",men loves women and women loves men.I didn't follow the gay step,instead I started with my first view of gay porn(before this was straight porn) last year May.Then I get myself gay novels and read some erotic gay stories online,and 16 erotic gay short stories in a book-Taboo by Sean Wolfe.

                      Right now,I achieving my fourth step-my very first gay magazine.I know some of gay magazines like Attitude,Instinct(thanks to Janice Dickinson),GayTimes,XY,Honcho(thanks to Nelson Glassman of Alex Sanchez's Rainbow Boys),DNA and OUT magazine.

                      While I was at this bookstore,an open bookstore in Sungei Wang Plaza where usually I went,2 days ago,I was at men health magazines where I don‘t always at that section.With my eyes browsing at those men health magazines,I caught this magazine with boy with brief,as I look at the magazine title,I just couldn't believe my own eyes,it's was GayTimes(GT).I mean,you just cant get any gay magazine at any book seller shop,and here is Malaysia."I must get this one" I said to myself.I noticed only left two and I quickly grabbed one.Now,GayTimes is mine.With excitement,I quickly browsed the magazine in an instant,in no time.Hmm...nice.Hmm...cute guys.Hmm...fuck,I got a buldge in my pant.I rolled the magazine to avoid people's eyes-to-look-what-you-holding.If wasn't the boy with brief cover,I'll just carry the magazine,show off.




                      This is the one I bought!


                      Carry the magazine and owned it,I just cant wait to read it.I had a big smile with huge grin on my face,I just can't resisted the excitement.It just like having a date and gonna meet him.I want to kiss the magazine.I want to have sex with the magazine.

                      I found myself a quiet spot at Times Square,I scanned the cover.The date was July,which is 5 month ago;price was at £3.75 equal to RM20.75.Fuck RM20 just for a gay magazine?But who's care,its my first gay magazine.I kissed the male model cover,Austin Bloom(the name which I found out later) and started my journey to it.

                      Journey will be next!

                      Monday, December 14, 2009

                      The Lost Last page

                      Watcha need in girls magazines?A girl fashion models and some hot guys candy.And vice versa to men magazines.

                      The last girl magazine or women magazine I read was CLEO,few month ago.Of course,for a quite few pages of all women drooled over that issue-the 50 Hottest Bachelors.I've been reading that issue,well,by browsing it and there's a lot of guys I liked,and only two names I could remember,Jin from hitz.fm and of course,Mr Henry Golding.And how I love Henry's dancing for that event.What a contemporaneous with "I-want-you!" screaming.





                      Yet again,I was in Times Square's Borders for books browsing.As I standing at girls magazine section,I grabbed a bumper issue of FEMALE.First thing,I turned the very last page,where I used to do so whenever I saw that issue few years back then just for a reason.



                      Wasn't me you fancy?


                      I remember,somewhere in 2005-2007,I had some copies of FEMALE and to mind you,those are not mine.There's one issue I really love which the last page was my favorite page-the topless till torso of guy candy.In that page there's a guy really caught my eyes,he was so godly handsome that will melt
                      anyone,and I forgotten his name,his face,everything.And the magazine vanished too!I always fantasize whenever I looked at him,everyday is a must-to-do-list.I just couldn't live without a glance of him everyday.Did I mentioned that I kissed that page of him everyday?

                      Oh hottie dude,where are thou?

                      Sunday, November 08, 2009

                      Hugging,My Crush?

                      As I clicked his picture album in his profile,something make my bottom jaw drop,I thought I'll view some hanging-with-friends pictures,but this picture make me wanna frame it,but at the same time I doesn't want to,because in that picture wasn't him alone.

                      He is my 7-years crush,Haire the studly looking dude.That picture showed him hugging with another person from the back,with his both arms lock that person body.A human lock,perhaps?

                      I won't let my jaws drop if he hugging someone but this picture showed me that he is actually doing it to a dude,his school mate.Hmmm...a dude to another dude,hugging from the back,doesn't it looks so fishy?Just like a gay couple,I'd say.


                       I think we both loves this.

                      The Malaysian version of Brokeback Mountain.

                      To be truth,I am very jealous to his friend.Not a mere jealousness but a strongest jealousy that hit the top of my jealous gauge,more than Henry Golding!How I wish to be hugged by him,to feel the firm of his human lock!Seriously I'll do anything for that.

                      But I doubt his sexuality,even though he has girlfriends.

                      Brad:Errr...Haire?
                      Haire:Yeah?
                      Brad:So,ummm...that picture,is it...?
                      Haire:What picture?
                      Brad:The picture of you,hugging a dude,from the back,so Brokeback Mountain!
                      Haire:Oh that,was...
                      Brad:What are you actually?

                      Could he be bisexual,or experimenting,or gay?(if he was one of those,I hope it was the third).You could answer that question,Haire.

                      And,I'll keep that picture.My gaydar always sensing him.

                      Birth of 27 True Runes

                      In the beginning of the world, there was only Darkness.
                      Over time,Darkness grew lonely,
                      This loneli
                      ness became a heavy sorrow.
                      Then, the Darkness shed a tea
                      r.
                      From the tear two brothers were formed: Sword and Shield.
                      Shield claimed it could defend against any attack.
                      Sword claimed it could slice through anything.
                      The brothers began a legendary battle.
                      They fell into war at lasted seven days and seven nights.
                      In the end, Sword breached Shield and Shield broke Sword.
                      Both Sword and Shield shattered.
                      Pieces of Sword became the sky,
                      Pieces of Shield became the earth,
                      And the sparks from the battle became the stars.
                      As for the jewels, they fell to the ground.
                      The 27 gems adorning Sword and Shield transformed into the 27 True Runes.
                      True Runes--The runes that all other runes were born from.
                      And thus the world began it's life.