Gay Magazine & Kylie Minogue

After work I went to MHS having a walk-xercise.Every time I go there I must go to Sungei Wang Plaza to check out my fave magazine-the gay-related magazine,where I first found my first gay magazine-Gay Times.

Checking out there don't have any,I proceed to Times Square where I know a shop lot sell foreign magazine.I spotted a Attitude Magazine.Since I left my bag in my locker at my workplace,I just know its not the right time to hold the magazine wandering around the crowded.Shouldn't show I holding a semi-naked man on mall and street.And I bought it 2 days later.Another collection.

Until late evening before 8,I went to Lot 10.Hanging around the YES Internet Mobile Network,I catch a glimpse at a laptop which a guy watching a music video.I saw a scene where there's a man-on-man kissing,immediately I catch the title of that music video.

It's His 21st Birthday

The title said it all.Yes,it's his 21st birthday on Sunday,December 5th 2010,which mean yesterday.He is Haire,the dude that I first secretly felt in love when I was gred 8 aka form 2.The first dude I had a feeling toward.The first dude I had a crush on.The first dude that make me wonder if it's normal to have a man-to-man feeling.And now,I'm gay because of him.

 Come on man,it's your birthday!

If it's now December 6th 2010,which is already passed 12 o'clock,well it's wasn't yet.I just knew that he wasn't in Malaysia,he flew to United Kingdom,to a place called Cardiff.And now,it 1800hour,December 5th 2010 there.

A few days ago I knew his birthday coming soon,and I had to make something special than a birthday wish on his Facebook wall.And guess what,working at a cake house,I had a White Christmas Yule Log,which made from vanilla sponge with Chantilly cream.Added with some Christmas mini toys,and most important thing I won't missed out-the 21st birthday wishes.

It's a lovely cake I make for him

Make Out With You

I was checking my abandoned sent-message in facebook inbox,then I saw this song which I wrote 2 years ago and now looking at this self-written song,it pretty good writes.

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

Since I saw that young man,I never was a straight man
I never had a girlfriend that wanted me,yeah
Ever since I blew you,I never even knew you

I only wanna get you right here in my pants

 

'Cause everybody,woah-oh-oh

Need a guy that they can touch

And you're somebody,whoa-oa-oa
That I fondled just in time

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you

My orientation changing
Its always rearranging
Its always gayer than I thought it ever would
Ever since you kissed me,you always wanna this me
I just wanna get down on my knee and blew

'Cause everybody,woah-oh-oh
If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

Don't tell me even that you're bi
Just tell me that you're gay
And gay with me all night

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right

If you want to make out,I'd make out with you
If you say that I'm queer,I would agree with you
If you think that I'm gay when I kissed a guy,well you'd be right.

When Your Gone

December 31st 2006.That the date I met "him" 3 years ago.He saw me 3 years ago.Destiny brought us together 3 years ago.Instantly,we became an item and inseparable.It was all happened in a very busy shopping mall with my friend looking for a thing and suddenly I spotted him.After this-and-that introduction,we started as a friend.I was so thrilled to have him,he may not my first but he's gorgeous among all I had before,and of course,I'm not his first.

He was good looking;I was below the scale.He doesn't mind.We're faithful to each other.His secret's mine and my secret's his,we never betray each other.aside that,he is multi-talented gifted-he can sing and compose,he can draw very well and not to mention,he great in acting.

I love him so much that I can't keep myself far away from him.He is everything to me.Rain or shine,or even wee hours of the morning,he will be my side,to comfort me;when I'm in moody,he will listen to my problem;when I in happiness,he will be there to share the joy.I was so lucky one to have him.

 We have something in common-magazine lover.

But last Friday,3-year-4-month later,an unfortunate happened to me,he is no more longer with me.I tried to trace every footstep but I couldn't find any single.I was sleeping with him the night before and suddenly,he just poof and disappear.

Well,this is not about boyfriend stuff,"He" is my ex-cellphone-SE K750i.

I lost the phone because I didn't realize that my pant's pocket got a hole and it just dropped somewhere.An hour later then I realize my phone wasn't with me and I traced back my way.No suck luck that people won't noticed a cellphone on the ground.I won't mind if the phone gone but together with my memory card!From Blue to Lady Gaga,vanish away from me.

Is Bankai For Bleach?

If you watch or read or at least heard Bleach-the anime and the manga,which is popular nowdays,then you might know what is "Bankai",or if you don't,then here's the explanation-A zanpakutou's final form which means "Full Release". It usually takes many years to master it. A Bankai can be ten times more powerful than the first release, "Shi-Kai".

Don't cha mest with my Heaven Chain Slaying Moon(Tensa Zangetsu)

*At least the cosplayer is a little quite good looking.

But if you think that only the meaning and could be found in Bleach,you're wrong and so am I before I found another meaning of Bankai.Well,it do sound a little dirty,in sexual way:

1)Somebody's penis-My bankai is growing in size.

2)It can also be describe as an erection-Man... I have a bankai.

3)Can tell when people are ejaculating-I'm about to bankai!

4)Premature ejaculation,after previously ejaculating-If you don't get off my shit I'm gonna bankai!

But I didn't use Bankai for those 4 example,I use for Bleach game only.

Long Searching Comes True

It's been about half-a-year since I last went to KLCC's Kinokuniya,and same goes to Mid Valley's Popular and The Gardens' Borders.Kinokuniya is one of the bookstore(biggest in town) where I can(sometime) search for some gay-related reads.

Last wednesday after half-a-year,I once again stepped into Kinokuniya,hoping to assisted by the search machine to find some of the books I saw at Amazon.But bookstore isn't everything what I wanted especially the books which gay-related,but trust me,there's some at romance,teens,gender and fiction shelf.If roll down to the left under The Book I Read,all the books were found there except Alex Sanchez's Rainbow Road and Reichen Lehmkuhl's Here's What We'll Say which from The Gardens' Borders.

Reichen and his ex,Lance and they're so cute!

While having some browsing there,I came across to music section.I kept my eyes set on biographies,at B marked sign on the shelf.For what?Because I been long searching for Lance Bass's Out Of Sync.Within a second my eyeballs targeted the book I been long searching for,and it was sealed.Nevermind I'll ask the counter staff help me.But before that,I took a browsing at teens section.While looking the shelf,I saw a book which I been long searching too-Alex Sanchez's Rainbow High.

Later on,I went to MHS and I passed a bookshop,and I straightly proceed to the elevator to upper floor.A second I stepped on the elevator I saw a familiar magazine.To ensure what I saw,I ran down the stairs and find the magazine.To my surprise and unbelievable,my eyes didn't prove me wrong,it's the Gay Times,the new issue,which I had it before.I gagged and drop the fuck bombs under my breathe.After pay £3.75(pound sterling=RM18.57 and I had it only RM15.90),I was trilled to have the second copy of Gay Times.It's was December issue 375 and the one I last bought was July issue 370.Could say that Gay Times were really rare to get here in Malaysia.Ahhh wish I could get Gay Times every issue,I definitely will collect it even it cost more bucks.

 Meet the second of mine.

The Bearer of 27 True Runes

Well,I saw some bloggers wrote down their facts and it seem interesting.They tell their 23 facts and I don't understand why 23?But here a little different,I use 27 True Runes replace the 23 facts.
1)The bearer have Arachnophobia-irrational fear of spiders but loves watching spider documentary.
2)The bearer allergy to prawns and crabs flesh but fine with tiny dried prawn?
3)The bearer is a strong silent type of person,guess he is shy or whatever.
4)The bearer is a fanatic of Suikoden games series,hence come this blog's title.
5)The bearer know how to swim at age 4 in 6 feet pool.
6)The bearer is a very loyal reader to Galaxie magazine and Hitz.fm loyal listener.
7)The bearer was elementary chinese educated but english spoken.Westernize.
8)The bearer have a bunch of comic collections,start with Doraemon,Dragon Ball,Hajime Kindaichi,and other with incomplete set.His all time favorite comic is Dragon Quest.
9)The bearer found he was attracted to his childhood guy friend and thought he was bisexual for 4 years and finally declare himself a fully homosexual 2 years ago.
10)The bearer doesn't chew food more than 3 times in large quantities.He just swallow it and always hungry for food-swallowing.

 I could finish the whole jar.

11)The bearer is a TV addict,mostly everyday have his favorite shows on local channel-drama,sci-fi,action or anything based on english TV.
12)The bearer never smoke,and the the only alcohol drink he ever (so far) consume were shandy.
13)The bearer always fully clothed,and brief on when sleeping(rarely).
14)The bearer have a chinese name and since no one call me that name anymore,after done my elementary,they just address me Bradley,simple.
15)The bearer never done any gay action yet,haven't kiss,hold hands,or talk to a gay guy.A completely untouched guy.
16)The last chinese song he listened was SHE 7 years ago.
17)The bearer is a hobosexual,he doesn't care his appearance and has no sense of fashion or style.
18)The bearer will use his pseudonyms he don't want to reveal himself.One of his was Freyjadour Falenas but has been founded by someone.
19)The bearer loves reading after picked Reichen Lehmkuhl's Here's What We'll Say,especially the one with bromance.
20)The bearer heritagely from Eurasian but he did look like Siamese as he been told.

Bin ich asiatischen oder eurasischen?

Am I asian or eurasian? 

21)The only 2 singer he admire and loves most is Jesse McCartney and Lady Gaga.
22)The only gay stuff he owned is his UK's GayTimes issue 370.Very precious.
23)The bearer can spend entire half day in a mall without shopping.
24)The bearer use simple english due to his poor spellings and his slow-words-arrangement.
25)The bearer doesn't inherit his father's hunky-playboy-looks nor his mother beauty.
26)The bearer couldn't stand if he sees someone local who's taller than his 6 feet,exception to the whites.
27)The bearer started using internet 2 years ago.Before he doesn't know how to.

A Little Scribble

 A male-on-male hug I needed!

Crush,

What is that?
Were it the same as love or
Two different things?
Were I in crush or
I've been secretly loving him
For the pass 8 years?

For him,

I support MU even though

I'm "stool legged".

For him,

I wish one day

I'll be driving BMW.

I always have him in my mind

No matter how many hawties

I'm been looking at.

I wanted to see him everyday,

Even there's no talking between us.

If I can't,a picture of him will do.

That will enoughly satisfied me.

Someone please help me to tell me,

Is this crushing or loving a person?

But I'll tell myself that I liking him,

That he is my first crush that make me

Into a person that I comfort with.

Even we couldn't be together,a friendly hug will do.

Actually I already knew,

I already understand that

We're from two different lifestyle.

A boy who love a boy who love girls.

A tilted who love straight.

Even though,

I keep myself strong,

I keep my feet stand still.

When I came out to you and

You don't mind having a gay friend.

I was happy with the acceptment but

I was afraid to confess my feeling.

Afraid that will destroy our friendship,

Even friend we couldn't be.

Even though I can't make a confession,

But I will continue secretly loving you,

until a person could replace you.

Till that moment,

I'll keep this feeling treasured,

Till forever.

Just in case you don't already know,Bad Romance is about in love to a best friend.

Dude Dude Dude

It was at night and I was at somewhere there's everyday activities were going on until late midnight.I was at busy night city at one of my favorite place-Mount Hill of Stars(MHS).Play enough games,read much magazines,viewed many eye candies and walked uncountable steps between mall to malls.

Before the clock struck on 12,before the day end,I bit farewell to MHS and proceed to the rows of clubs and pubs.While my little walk to there,I came across a very dashing,good looking white dude were walking to MHS.Alone he was.He's very handsome that my eyes balls kept looking at him with my face facing straight the street.

A few feet behind him was another dude probably from the Middle Eastern.A young-good-looking-daddy looks,clean shaven with after shaved perma-scruff.Like the white dude in front of him,he was alone too.Could he have stalking the dude?

There's an easier way for walking,err rolling

Thought the 2 dudes satisfied me enough,but whats make the third person?Again,few feet behind both of them appeared another dude,an asian,probably local chinese dude.Also a handsomely enough with the hairstyle of Taylor Lautner,minus the height which shorter some inches.Well,guess what,he was alone too,following the dudes infront .While passing the chinese dude,I couldn't take anymore than I could,I yelped a little hard voice along the breath I breathed,dropping the F word.When I turned my head back,I noticed the chinese dude were looking at me,probably thinking that I was mumbling alone.

3 hawt dudes,1 place,1 moment.Were it just coincident?I think it's just enough for my eye candies views.1 world dude.

One Less Lonely Guy

To be honest,I wasn't easy socialize to a person,I may seem as a friendly person in the net but not at the reality.I'm shy.Shy to friend with someone.I don't think that I've much friends and could counted easily by fingers.To name a few,my best buddy-girl Khanchna,ex-friend Kate,my crush,stranger-but-friendly-in net Nicky and so on that I cant really offered to be named.

Aside hard-to-socialize me,I'm also a very strong silent type but also a talkative when it comes to some interest subject.Almost all the time I'll feel kinky if I couldn't start a simple conversation,as if I was lack in communication,unless we're talking about Q & A.Well,if you found me talk pretty well in the net,try find it out and figure it soon enough when face to face.I just scared of talking because I don't have a good sense of humor or to tell jokes to cherish someone or get someone to laugh at my jokes.I afraid I'll tell the "Third Jokes" and ruin everything.

 As if you could tell what I'm thinking!

Like 2 weeks ago when a net friend invited me to met his new friend and my heart was quick beating because he invited me and of course I wanna join them,but at the same time I felt nervous.I not sure should I join them or not.I'd said that if I can get permission(totally bullshit) but at the end,on that day the meeting,I make excuse that I had to attend my brother's friend' wedding.But the truth is,I never follow him but the wedding is true,instead I stuck in my house with PS2.I felt guilty after that I lied to someone who sincerely invite me and I'd apologize to him soon later by telling the truth.

I really hate my weakened guts,I hate that I don't have bravery.And I promise myself in order to build my confidence and guts,I'll meet him someday.