A Little Scribble

 A male-on-male hug I needed!

Crush,

What is that?
Were it the same as love or
Two different things?
Were I in crush or
I've been secretly loving him
For the pass 8 years?

For him,

I support MU even though

I'm "stool legged".

For him,

I wish one day

I'll be driving BMW.

I always have him in my mind

No matter how many hawties

I'm been looking at.

I wanted to see him everyday,

Even there's no talking between us.

If I can't,a picture of him will do.

That will enoughly satisfied me.

Someone please help me to tell me,

Is this crushing or loving a person?

But I'll tell myself that I liking him,

That he is my first crush that make me

Into a person that I comfort with.

Even we couldn't be together,a friendly hug will do.

Actually I already knew,

I already understand that

We're from two different lifestyle.

A boy who love a boy who love girls.

A tilted who love straight.

Even though,

I keep myself strong,

I keep my feet stand still.

When I came out to you and

You don't mind having a gay friend.

I was happy with the acceptment but

I was afraid to confess my feeling.

Afraid that will destroy our friendship,

Even friend we couldn't be.

Even though I can't make a confession,

But I will continue secretly loving you,

until a person could replace you.

Till that moment,

I'll keep this feeling treasured,

Till forever.

Just in case you don't already know,Bad Romance is about in love to a best friend.

Dude Dude Dude

It was at night and I was at somewhere there's everyday activities were going on until late midnight.I was at busy night city at one of my favorite place-Mount Hill of Stars(MHS).Play enough games,read much magazines,viewed many eye candies and walked uncountable steps between mall to malls.

Before the clock struck on 12,before the day end,I bit farewell to MHS and proceed to the rows of clubs and pubs.While my little walk to there,I came across a very dashing,good looking white dude were walking to MHS.Alone he was.He's very handsome that my eyes balls kept looking at him with my face facing straight the street.

A few feet behind him was another dude probably from the Middle Eastern.A young-good-looking-daddy looks,clean shaven with after shaved perma-scruff.Like the white dude in front of him,he was alone too.Could he have stalking the dude?

There's an easier way for walking,err rolling

Thought the 2 dudes satisfied me enough,but whats make the third person?Again,few feet behind both of them appeared another dude,an asian,probably local chinese dude.Also a handsomely enough with the hairstyle of Taylor Lautner,minus the height which shorter some inches.Well,guess what,he was alone too,following the dudes infront .While passing the chinese dude,I couldn't take anymore than I could,I yelped a little hard voice along the breath I breathed,dropping the F word.When I turned my head back,I noticed the chinese dude were looking at me,probably thinking that I was mumbling alone.

3 hawt dudes,1 place,1 moment.Were it just coincident?I think it's just enough for my eye candies views.1 world dude.

One Less Lonely Guy

To be honest,I wasn't easy socialize to a person,I may seem as a friendly person in the net but not at the reality.I'm shy.Shy to friend with someone.I don't think that I've much friends and could counted easily by fingers.To name a few,my best buddy-girl Khanchna,ex-friend Kate,my crush,stranger-but-friendly-in net Nicky and so on that I cant really offered to be named.

Aside hard-to-socialize me,I'm also a very strong silent type but also a talkative when it comes to some interest subject.Almost all the time I'll feel kinky if I couldn't start a simple conversation,as if I was lack in communication,unless we're talking about Q & A.Well,if you found me talk pretty well in the net,try find it out and figure it soon enough when face to face.I just scared of talking because I don't have a good sense of humor or to tell jokes to cherish someone or get someone to laugh at my jokes.I afraid I'll tell the "Third Jokes" and ruin everything.

 As if you could tell what I'm thinking!

Like 2 weeks ago when a net friend invited me to met his new friend and my heart was quick beating because he invited me and of course I wanna join them,but at the same time I felt nervous.I not sure should I join them or not.I'd said that if I can get permission(totally bullshit) but at the end,on that day the meeting,I make excuse that I had to attend my brother's friend' wedding.But the truth is,I never follow him but the wedding is true,instead I stuck in my house with PS2.I felt guilty after that I lied to someone who sincerely invite me and I'd apologize to him soon later by telling the truth.

I really hate my weakened guts,I hate that I don't have bravery.And I promise myself in order to build my confidence and guts,I'll meet him someday.