Hugging,My Crush?

As I clicked his picture album in his profile,something make my bottom jaw drop,I thought I'll view some hanging-with-friends pictures,but this picture make me wanna frame it,but at the same time I doesn't want to,because in that picture wasn't him alone.

He is my 7-years crush,Haire the studly looking dude.That picture showed him hugging with another person from the back,with his both arms lock that person body.A human lock,perhaps?

I won't let my jaws drop if he hugging someone but this picture showed me that he is actually doing it to a dude,his school mate.Hmmm...a dude to another dude,hugging from the back,doesn't it looks so fishy?Just like a gay couple,I'd say.

 I think we both loves this.

The Malaysian version of Brokeback Mountain.

To be truth,I am very jealous to his friend.Not a mere jealousness but a strongest jealousy that hit the top of my jealous gauge,more than Henry Golding!How I wish to be hugged by him,to feel the firm of his human lock!Seriously I'll do anything for that.

But I doubt his sexuality,even though he has girlfriends.

Brad:Errr...Haire?
Haire:Yeah?
Brad:So,ummm...that picture,is it...?
Haire:What picture?
Brad:The picture of you,hugging a dude,from the back,so Brokeback Mountain!
Haire:Oh that,was...
Brad:What are you actually?

Could he be bisexual,or experimenting,or gay?(if he was one of those,I hope it was the third).You could answer that question,Haire.

And,I'll keep that picture.My gaydar always sensing him.

The Leather Bikini's Fight

While I reading some foreign magazines,I found a very interesting picture of Lady GaGa and Madonna fighting in Saturday Night Live(SNL),while dancing!So let the video rolling!


 
Here's the most funny moment:
Lady GaGa:What's wrong,Madonna?Can't get into the groove?
Madonna:What is the hell is disco stick?!
Lady GaGa:I think you know!
Madonna:What kind of name is Lady GaGa?It sounds like a baby food.

End with foursome...

The Unskilled Comboist Fighter

Boys will be boys;Men will be men.Boys-Men likes cars,robots,harsh games,wrestle,football,basketball and involving fake wars.Yeah,and hot chicks too,unless you're the type of "I show you mine if you show me yours".And I wasn't sure that I was completely male-ish,I not interest in cars and football,but since my crush,yeah that childhood dude,always talking about BMW and Manchester United,so I did too,if people ask me,it gonna be BMW and MU.I loves watching Transformers,but I don't talk about it.Forgot Optimus Prime and Bumblebee,nothing to describe that metal robots and how it from a car transform into huge robotic robot,nah.

Don't tell me how hot is that chick,the sexyness,smooth legs and so on.I might say "Yeah.Hot" in my voice to your chick-like,but in my mind,how hot are you?

I too,loves fighting games.More of it,a huge fan-player of The King of Fighters' series'.Since I was 10,I always went to family entertainment center to play the game machine,to twist the joystick and press the buttons.And without parents knowledge and never ever they knew about it.I was under 18.I always spend my time there,the game systems,the characters,the combos,the 2-3D,the power-max-power,anything you say,were completely better than Street Fighter.Forget Ryu and Ken,mind me Iori Yagami and Kyo Kusanagi.

My fighting game life,my King of Fighters.

As usual,I always hang around at Sungei Wang Plaza's.There a Dude I been checking him out.He is quite hot,if you see him.That dude wasn't not skilled combo-ist as me(yeah I'm kinda expert but not so expert),but he knew some max power as he played the easiest-perform machine compare to the others,which kinda hard.That game spot is for low ranking person.Sometime I challenged him,sometime I won;sometime I lose,just give chance,pity him.But once we smiled over his clumsy movement on his character,and nothing happen.

Here,try my Champion-Punch-Fist-Knuckle

Brad:Err,to perform that Vanessa's combo-power-max-power...

Dude:Quick,I'm gonna lose!

Brad:Activate the max power gauge,twist from south to west to south to east with Heavy Punch button,that's the Crazy Puncher,and before the final punch or the 11th hit,twist from south to east,so that the attack will stop and paralyse the opponent,then it all yours.You could perform numberous Crazy Puncher after activate the max power gauge everytime a normal power is perform but skip the last punch,if could,perform a 99th hits,then perform the Max Crazy Puncher,the max's command same as normal one but with both light and heavy punch button.Finish!

Dude:What The Fuck of that long babbling?!Look,I'm lose a character!

Brad:Hmm,look like you need my help after all,yeah?OK,free course.

Dude:Deal!

If that conversation is true...

Goodbye Mr Stud

I could not believe when my brother told me this,that Henry Golding is leaving The 8TV Quickie.I told him no way he is leaving and was told that Henry gonna be on set until that week of Friday(Sep 4)

Seriously dude,you can't be leaving all of us,right?Do you ever thought of our feeling when you announced this unwanted-to-hear news?

I don't know when Henry's first aired on The Quickie,but I do know it's was after the Malay dude Raz.The very first time Henry was on aired,the good-looking-handsome,the hunch that he is mixed parentage and the great-till-you-melt smile had me charmed over him.Since onward that day,I've been catching him from The Quickie.I like to watch Henry and study him,the way he speak,the lips movement,the accent with smooth talking and the cynical smile he always added.

Does my wink make you melt?

Everytime,if I could catch The Quickie,I only hope for Henry and Belinda Chee,they seem to be a great-partner-on-set and couple,if they could.The beautiful sound of Belinda and the dude sound of Henry never ever had failed to make me fagical.Other host will make me groan and mumble,curse 'em

If I could have 3 wishes upon Henry,I would wanted to see him physically,think over him mentally and fantasize him sexually.I want to hold his hand,to hug him as buddy hugs,to able to smell his body deodorant,and of course pictured him naked.

Now that he Henry has abroad to Singapore to start his new career as a host in ESPN's Football Crazy,and I don't think that I'll catch him on football guide or whatsoever because to me,football is *yawn*

So now,until we meet again,on TV set or anywhere you could emceed.And goodbye,Mr Stud.And welcome Mr Next Stud!

Home Prison Ain't Quarantine

I think I addicted to Internet or watcha-called-it stuff.And it's been a month since I last touched a keyboard and mouse.Not to say that my computer had broken or destroyed,but the truth is I don't have my own!I wish I have my own Kyle.Seriously I'll name all my stuff 'Kyle',taken from Kyle XY,the character that Matt Dallas(below picture) played,the non-bellybutton.Call me silly or childish but this is me,even my character in games,if require a name,then it'll be Kyle.

Look,ma.I can cast fire.

Instead,I was home prison(my term for not able to online or whatever).Sorry to disappoint your or whom worries of the hateful influenza illness AH1N1 but I still healthy even I was attacked by AH1N1 symptoms like high fever,muscle and joint pain,but it gone after a day or two.Thanks God for not make me home quarantine,because it will burden anyone.

So,this dude had kept me all along the month-my new PS2.Not fully mine because most of it my brother paid,that why I couldn't name him Kyle.My old PS2,the big size,were kept in a box with PS1,due to unable to resurrection.

Even I have my new buddy,I still missed the Internet,my blog and them,and those sites I frequently visited.I couldn't live without them beside me.

Excitement overcome me to this PS2,I can play my favorite game-SuikodenV.Sadly it's just can't go through the data when I clicked load game,and I wasn't finished since I last played few months ago in friend's house.So I started with Suikoden III,which has 3D graphic.I played nearly to the end,when I pissed off my brother,he deleted the data.Then I began with Rogue Galaxy.How I wished to play Bleach the fighting game which is borrowed to someone long time ago after my old PS2 in coma.Forget The King of Fighters,which I prefer to have it on joystick like at the family entertainment.

Er,I mean,in games,not the real!

In the moment,I'll be waiting for the information on Suikoden VI.Oh come on,what the new runes?

Just Smile

I spotted this Malay boy again when I was waiting a public transport.

Again?Actually he is not spotted by me,but I knew he always at there every morning.Helping.Yes,he helping his mother sell nasi lemak at Kl Sentral,beside 7-eleven.The last time I saw him was couple of months ago,maybe more than that?


I analyzed him.Age-about 17-19;Hair-common Malay hairstyle;Face-handsome and good-looking;Body-OK;Wearing t-shirt and jean with sandal.Overall,handsome and good-looking,guapo un masarap.He was sitting on a plastic chair,with his little brother,probably elementary schoolkid,fooling round with his little brother,struggling between them,skin touch and what a close brothers.They make me jealous as they touch each other and I noticed both of them were twins,just age different.

On second though,nasi lemak or me?

Easy to spot them were twins:their face almost the same,just age different and they had a charming-that-could-melt-smile.Yeah,the smile,the gift they had.But Matt Dallas as Kyle in Kyle XY,has the most Oh-My-God-please-melt-me-with-that-smile in first season's pilot.Sorry Malay boy and thank you Matt,for that smile.

I kept locked my eyes on him until the damn bus arrived.Goodbye hottie boy.And I'm so gay!

V Factory

I grabbed few magazines-People,Us Weekly,Woman's Day,In Touch Weekly,Life & Style Weekly,Star,and OK!magazine when I at Mid Valley's Borders.Quickly find a nice spot but all occupied,so I had to sit on the carpet covered-floor,anyway it's comfortable too.If I could lay down,both legs on the air as teenager girls does,with junkies,wouldn't be nice if they had these facilities.Then I flip page to pages,to catch-up what happened to those celebrities' scene.*Sigh*more news on Brad Pitt-Angelina Jolie,Susan Boyle and Peter Andre-Jordan Price

Hmmm...so this and that happened!

Only today I haven't get the latest of Heat magazine.I love Heat because it's is the best of all,especially Heat Torso section,where have a picture of a semi nude hot guy,not normal dude but whatever-celebrity-lists-he-is.

Then don't-know-which-magazines,I found out a band of 5 hot guys and I mean 5 of them*drool*.A band named V Factory.Their music genre are Pop,R&B and Urban.

Hey there everyone!We are V Factory!


The members of V Factory are:

*Jared Makaio Murillo

*August 6, 1988
*Mapleton,Utah
*Known for his appearance as a featured dancer in High School Musical 1 & 2
*Ashley Tisdale's ex-boyfriend

*Asher Monroe Book
*September 18, 1988
*Arlington,Virginia

*Nathaniel Flatt
*September 18, 1981
*Cockeville,Tennessee

*Nick Teti
*Nicknamed Nicky T
*July 23, 1983
*Philadelphia,Pennsylvania

*Wesley Quinn
*January 16, 1990
*Greenville,South Carolina

Those hot 5's first single-Love Struck.Check 'em out!Promise wouldn't let you down!

P/S:This V Factory were same as Menudo.Some common between 2 bands!And I think I'm gonna spend more time looking at those pictures of them.

Summer Hunks

I love summer!!!

Don't get me wrong and don't get you wrong,I did not like the heat and the laser rays of sun.Instead,beach.Those hot boys or hot dudes with their topless with their whatever-swimming-trunks,swimming at the beach,taking a walk,lying on the beach with suntan oil all over their bodies or struggle with their beach buddies.OK that's only happen at western countries,rather in Malaysia we hardly saw those.

Yahoo!!!It's fun here!Wanna join?

But I'm not going to the beach,KL don't have it own beach and I'm not planning to beaching.

But there's other hunks than those beaching on summer-don't forget the Summer Movies!Yeah that's what I talking about!Meet the sexy men who already or will be steaming up the screen this season!

First we meet the first of all-Freddie Stroma,who will play Cormac McLaggen in Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince.Too Bad Ron took over his place as Gryffindor Quidditch Team's Keeper as Ron scored all but Cormac McLaggen scored four out of five saves.

That Ron,how dare he scored more than me?!

Next we meet Channing Tatum,which already done Fighting and will be releasing another movie-G.I.Joe:The Rise of Cobra,will play as Duke in the movie.

OK!Who's next to struggle with me

Then we all know the hunkie who play in Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen.No,no,I'm not talking about Shia Labeouf,who play Sam witwicky,he not hunkie yet,instead it's Josh Duhamel,play Major Lennox.He is a real hunkie!

Where is my Fergie?And take more pictures of me!

Survival (Part 2)-Retreat

I couldn't slept.My eyes are tired but I couldn't slept.My ears kept listening to sounds,a crack,a tickling,anything that tinnily sounded.My eyes kept staring at the door,at the floor,if the light were on.I was waiting for them to realized that their gay son had came back.Suddenly my eyes slept.

ZzzZzzZzzZzzZzz*snort*

I woke again.It was 6 morning.I should get ready to get dressed,get out from the house as soon as possible,maybe I too afraid to confront this to my dad.

In the afternoon,while I was break from my job,suddenly I saw my brother with his friend,I tried to hide myself but nothing could hide me,as we saw each each other.I faced him,with all my guts,trying to deny whatever gay stuff he'll spill out later.But he wasn't,like nothing happened,or maybe because his friend were there,he couldn't tell any.He just tell me to go home as he never saw me that night.I was so relief,maybe my dad haven't told them yet.

"You're gay,right?""For God sake,I'm not!"

But I not going home tonight.I straightly went to the place where I used to spend my entire night life.Not club,mind you,it's Internet cafe.

What happened in the next morning,I couldn't reveal to anyone,which I made a promise to that person.So,skip to when I went home at 11 morning.I went in and saw my mother there.Uh oh OMGWTF!OK,what you wanna say,ya better say it now! But she just asking me where I went,no more than that.After I hand the money to my Aunt Lara to give later to my dad,I went have breakfast with my mum.While we walking,I told her the news about a 14 year old son punched and swore to his mother,because his mother found out that his son had a boyfriend,20 year old.His mother asked him to leave his boyfriend and this gay relationship,but the son wasn't listen,he scold her mother,told her that she wasn't deserved to be a mother to him,which she can't afford whatever things he need,which his boyfriend gave him money to support the family,before laid his hand to his mother.

We went back after breakfast,from the kitchen window before I were in front of the gate,I saw a half naked figure of a man.Who'll it be if wasn't my dad?I quickly open the gate,if I could cast haste spell on me to make me escape from him.And he,like nothing happened last Sunday,and how about the gay word I told him?Nothing,not even a conversation between us,as usual,there's nothing to talk about.

I had my mother in the room,play Lady Gaga's,and told her the incident that happened but I'm never told her that I'm gay,trying everything to denied myself a gay in the room.Then we had a talk about the gay boy news we talking,then celebrities who was gay.We had GAY issues!My mother used to homophobic when it come to gay issue,but after I confront her about gay people,changed her view about gay people,and I succeeded.I could talk about gay stuff whenever I wanted to.

"OK,tell me what you want to talk,Bradley"

Later at night,my brother came back.I also told the incident to him (we often joked about gay stuff,where we always told my mother that he is gay,he told her I'm gay,just joking around),then my brother told me that my dad had told them,when I was not in the house,my brother jokingly told my mother that I'm gay,then my dad told him:"Your brother is GAY!He earned money by letting people fucking him!Don't know how many people had fucked him?!"Then I told him it's was just to pissed off him.

Since that day,whenever I went to Internet and only went home the next morning,

Mum:Spend your day with your boyfriend?
Bradley:Yeah,I miss him,I loved him,I need him,everything about HIM.

Wish I had a boyfriend to say that,and bring him back to introduce him to my parent(when I ready to do so).Well,now I should retreat to my closet again.

I love you,my future boyfriend.

Survival (Part 1)-The Encounter

After the incident happened last Sunday,I was afraid to go home(on the same day).I knew if I do so I'll face the shrieking sound of musics from my family!Imagine 3 people!I might have no peace if they're such a homophobic person.

"Come on and hit me!" "Oh yeah I'll do that!"

Whenever I think back what had I said to my dad,I'll give myself a little sigh-smile,monologue myself how stupid am I saying such the word "gay" to him!When my cousin Jamie found that out (she the second person to know,which the first person I told to was Sammie dude,told him the incident before I posted,seeking advices),she called me and wanna meet me.I was in Mid Valley and she were there about 30 minutes later.Jamie,she look younger than her real age,perhaps she was born in wrong age.

Luckily she was open with this homosexuality issues,told me that I can't get marriage here as the Malaysia's law disapprove gay marriage unlike some other countries that legalize gay marriage,which I know was Canada and some places in United State.Jamie told me that if I want to get marriage I shall migrate to Belgium,where her friend went there married with his partner and had some puppies.I long know that Malaysia won't legalize gay marriage,unless someone could change their view and opinion upon gay marriage,it will be like one in a thousand years,but someone I know,Sammie dude and his ex-beau,before they broke up,they wore a ring(well I wasn't sure if Lance wore it) to prove their relationship.If gay people wanted a long relationship,they should had these 3 things-COMMITMENT,COMMUNICATION AND TRUST.

Hot as straight couples

After some talk,I stupidly told her that I could independent on myself and she disagree my though.For some reason she told me,I think a while and agree what she said,which I wasn't ready to independent yet!I don't have a real steady job,I don't have huge income .So at here i wanna say this to her:Jamie,I took back whatever I said about me could being independent.Yes I still can't stand on my both bare feet yet,and I still need shoes to support me.
From the conversation between my cousin,she told me lot about herself,when she first came down to KL from Sarawak,she had money just enough for her meals,with a place to stay.She didn't ask anyone's help,from there she started to find a job which is office job,lecture at night and two job on weekends.4 jobs in a week,I could be exhausted if I were in her shoe!

After spending the night she volunteered to sent me home but night is still early and I wasn't ready to face him,I asked her to dropped somewhere and proceed to Bukit Bintang.As the clock struck on midnight,I'm ready to go home,I just couldn't care what'll happen to me later.Might some bruises on my face,tears run down to my cheeks,suffering in pain and all those things might happened to me.

One thing should I know-SURVIVE!

As my leg dragged my body to the house of punishment,I were thinking what should I say to him later on?"Hey dad,this morning the word I said was mean happy"-nope I shouldn't say that,Sammie dude warned me that and after all he is not dumb!Or should I say:"Hey dad,this morning I tried to testing on you,to make you angry I said that word"-hmm quite OK maybe he will fall on this trick.Or should I tell him the whole thing?

I walked to the front of my house-light off,no sounds.OK I'm ready to go in.But if they sitting at the hall waiting or welcome me?Ahh,who's care!Open the gate and the door,*relief* all in their bedroom.I straightly went into my room quietly which I'm so expert to do that :p.

Sleep and think about tomorrow.